It has been a long time. I am afraid I must apologise for the lack of updates of late, but time and distance have a way of getting the best of all of us. I can claim being victim to circumstances beyond my control, as the establishment of a reliable internet connection has eluded me until only recently. But that is a poor excuse and I can offer none better. If anything, this brief period of disconnection has given me pause to consider my words carefully - unlike the rest of my life - and at the very least provided an unexpectedly refreshing detox from technology :).
Suffice it to say, I somehow find myself back in a place I once knew so well, slowly settling back into the ebb and flow of life here. But time flies and a month has already passed as if nothing at all. That is it's nature I suppose and is want to leave us behind if we do not pay close attention. So I have tried. In the intervening period, I've met some fine new friends, spent time exploring and discovering some wonderful sights off the beaten track, attended numerous summer festivals and witnessed the skies ablaze with countless fireworks, and somehow along the way I've managed to start setting up my apartment with the little things one sometimes forgets that slowly make it feel like "home". It is a hard thing to explain, but there is a definite "rightness" to being back here. Half forgotten but fondly remembered sights and smells and sounds surround me as I slip back into the familiar pattern of bygone days as if no time has passed at all. I am not really sure what it all means, but that is the point after all. The "not knowing" and the eventual "finding out". The journey, still searching for a destination. All I know for certain is that for the first time in a long time, I may just be able see somewhere on the horizon, a "real" life stretching out before me... or at least something very much like it :).
With summer classes over and the real ones about to begin, I feel that perhaps I can do more than simply go through the motions and pass through this time around. Perhaps, in some small way, I may just be able to do something of value and make a difference that is truly worthwhile. I guess that remains to be seen, but I will definitely make the most of the opportunity before me.
Whatever the case, it is good to be back. What a long strange road it has been, as they say... and the road goes ever on...
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
what a long strange road it has been... and is yet to be...
It has been a long time. I am afraid I must apologise for the lack of updates of late, but time and distance have a way of getting the best of all of us. I can claim being victim to circumstances beyond my control, as the establishment of a reliable internet connection has eluded me until only recently. But that is a poor excuse and I can offer none better. If anything, this brief period of disconnection has given me pause to consider my words carefully - unlike the rest of my life - and at the very least provided an unexpectedly refreshing detox from technology :).
Suffice it to say, I somehow find myself back in a place I once knew so well, slowly settling back into the ebb and flow of life here. But time flies and a month has already passed as if nothing at all. That is it's nature I suppose and is want to leave us behind if we do not pay close attention. So I have tried. In the intervening period, I've met some fine new friends, spent time exploring and discovering some wonderful sights off the beaten track, attended numerous summer festivals and witnessed the skies ablaze with countless fireworks, and somehow along the way I've managed to start setting up my apartment with the little things one sometimes forgets that slowly make it feel like "home". It is a hard thing to explain, but there is a definite "rightness" to being back here. Half forgotten but fondly remembered sights and smells and sounds surround me as I slip back into the familiar pattern of bygone days as if no time has passed at all. I am not really sure what it all means, but that is the point after all. The "not knowing" and the eventual "finding out". The journey, still searching for a destination. All I know for certain is that for the first time in a long time, I may just be able see somewhere on the horizon, a "real" life stretching out before me... or at least something very much like it :).
With summer classes over and the real ones about to begin, I feel that perhaps I can do more than simply go through the motions and pass through this time around. Perhaps, in some small way, I may just be able to do something of value and make a difference that is truly worthwhile. I guess that remains to be seen, but I will definitely make the most of the opportunity before me.
Whatever the case, it is good to be back. What a long strange road it has been, as they say... and the road goes ever on...
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'go through the motions and pass through this time around'
ReplyDeleteIts an interesting notion considering of all the people I know you are arguably one of the few people taking risks to be someplace you want to be. Not only geographically speaking but in work, lifestyle etc...
Yet the idea you feel that you're an observer rather than a participant probably holds true as well. Funny that.